愛

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大部份人，時常對愛有以下四種觀念。

１）有人說：「從前的愛情故事，總是最精彩的；可是往往最精彩，同時也是最短暫的。」
　　這叫迷戀。
　　熱熾的愛情時常觸礁，常因為心態不成熟，以至雙方不懂珍惜；另一可能，這是霧水緣，若既是沒經得起時間考驗，豈能說這是真愛？
　　其二是最精彩不等於短暫，相愛可以由激烈轉為平淡，若天天都愛得精彩，大概對方或你早便心臟病發了，除非你知道對方會早死，回憶雖然精彩而長久，但這種愛很慘烈，往往令你很難抽身。

２）有人說：「傷得最痛的，便是你的最愛。」
　　這叫錯愛。
　　最傷你的，不等於就是最愛。
　　相反你不愛的，也隨時可以把你傷得體無完膚，原因可以是他／她很愛你，而且愛得很自私；也或者，你傷得他／她太深，所以他／她失去了常性，要狠狠折磿你。

３）有人說：「此刻跟你一起是最舒服及最幸福的，所以你是我的最愛。」
　　這叫蒙愛。
　　即蒙受關愛，是估計對方付出了多少，你正在斤斤計較要獲多少寵愛。

4）也有人說：「誰能跟我最長久的，就是我的最愛。」
　　其實這叫未發生的愛。

P.M.S -->What the hell!!!

I'm depressed!!!!!
I'm stress!!!!
I'm not motivated!!!!
I've been lazy!!!!

Need to really gather my scattered heart to sit down and study for my final.
It's 5 more weeks to my final. And I have lots to catch up...
How I wish I can just give up studying...
Well... giving up is not an option, it's just a thought that will never be taken into action.
I can never really give up eventhough I wanna give up.
Maybe I really need to stay away from the world outside, it's just too many attraction to side track me...
I can never really put my heart and mind together...
How to make myself 'ringan tulang'.
I wanna study study study... If not it might be hard for me to pass my final.
If I don't wanna fail, I must be hardworking.
Start to do more reading...
But there is so much I need to do, but so little time...
Ah!!!! God why did u give me such task~~~
I can't handle myself, I need HELP!!!
Who can help me?? Did God forget me?? Or did He is busy helping someone else???

我好失败！！！
好无聊！！！
有谁能帮帮我？？？
神啊！！！你忘了我吗？

I'm Blessed.... Felt contented.

I'm so happy... I finally got my own car... Bought the car during easter holiday. a brand new Honda civic vti. soooo happy. First time in my life that i actually own something. bring my baby around the block that night. and went to gold coast on saturday. First time my baby had gone that far. It wasn't that far to drive to gold coast. then we went to the beach and had a joyous day. the purpose was to met up with a fren who came from singapore. But unfortunately didn't get to met her. maybe some misunderstand in between. went to the hotel to check if she had check in or not. but then the receptionist say there is no such person. but then the next purpose was to had seafood buffet. it was really nice. the seafood was really fresh.. ate alot...

sunday was suppose to stay in to do some reading. but then didn't do anything the whole day only watched anime. then went to little paris to hav coffee. i had a white chocolate. it was as if they melt a whole bar of white chocolate. it is so thick that it look like custard. then i drove up to mt cootha. it was so cold up there. the view up there was really nice. it's a nice place to go with the someone..

it was a nice weekend. a weekend that i will cherished a weekend that is so happy.... was quite down the few days before. cause i failed a test. consist of 24% then i get myself drunk on friday night. cause i was so down that i finish a whole bottle of sparkling wine. plus i don't hav those wine glasses so i use a mug to drink. and it felt like drinking water. gulp gulp down the throat. and then the world starts to spin after finishing the whole bottle.

welll. at least today i did some reading and did some tutorial assignment. but i couldn't do one of the question eventhough i use the textbook. hm.. think is because i haven't been really attentive in class.

the day is goin to an end. and tomorrow is another uni day... hope i can be more hardworking and more alert. no one else can help me but myself....

God had sent someone to care bout me. I'm happy that someone exist. Thanks God. and mum is getting better by day... I'm so blessed. eventhough i hurt my knee. But a bit of pain doesn't meant anything as long as I'm blessed.