Promises are meant to be broken?

My exam is over. Why I'm feeling so down. I don't feel at all happy. That's because my friends are leaving. Everyone is going home, they are graduating. I'm moving to a far far away place. haha. Not that far. but yet far enough.

I almost went to gold coast by myself just now. Didn't bring my phone on purpose. But on the way there, i decided to pick up my harry potter that I had it hold in library. Then couldn't get a parking and was wondering if I should just leave for Gold Coast or not. Then I don't know what make me turn a turn and head towards home. And now i'm here writing my blog instead of reading a book at the beach.

I don't like this feeling, where everyone I know is graduating and leaving for home. And I staying back to finish up my stupid degree. I want to go home. But where's home... Isn't that pathetic?

I've been let down by promises, too many to count. I've a tendency not to believe in promises. But sometimes I wish that just this once, just this once, let it be real. But yet. I'm being let down as well. I don't know what I should do with my life. Sometimes it feels so bad to be alive that I wish I'm not. Sometimes when I'm so out of clue I wish I had another option.

I'm at a dead end, waiting for lord to shine me a small hole to crawl pass. I'm so helpless yet lost.Get myself into deep shit and don't know how to solve.

Should I go up to gold coast or not.......